Last night muscles he got stronger while lifting things. Hes got shorter hair and it really does do the stick up thing go backward in front, what I always try to smooth down especially when hes just gotten out of the shower. But now that hes buzzed I can see that his hair really does go that way, and that its not just because of how he always pushes his away from his forehead.

His lips were the first time again, all soft and smooth and eager. His sweat smells the same again and I missed it. I missed falling into him, just all loose, head in the hollow. I missed how he always touches me in abstraction, trailing on my knees and my calves and my sneakers while he listening elsewhere.